Really, truly

I went through Mia’s baby clothes to kind of inventory and organize. When I stood up and looked at the changing table, for a second the fact that two little babies are actually going to be here seemed real. I wasn’t as scared during that moment. More grateful than anything. Kind of enchanted, thinking how magical and reverent it was having just one little new spirit in the house.

From home to the O.R.

It turns out that the midwife clinic I was planning on going to for this pregnancy can’t handle twin births, so I’m going back to Dr. Langer all the way over at Jordan Valley. I’m kind of relieved, even though I’m not looking forward to such long drives again to get to appointments, and it worries me that I’ll be so far away from the hospital on D-day. I hope they won’t automatically want to induce me, ‘cause I really want things as natural as possible (if possible.) I’m just praying that they both present vertex, even though only a small percent of twins do. Second best would be if the second baby is breech and Dr. Langer is a confident breech “birther.” I so dread being cut open. I might opt for general anesthesia, just because I am so freaked out by the idea. I mean- hello- I don’t want an epidural because I’m afraid of the needle. This is like- ten times worse. I can't believe I'm going from delivering at home, to the O.R.
I read both books we got from Barnes and Noble on twins. One is over 300 pages, the other 500. I barely skimmed over all the “this is why your pregnancy is more likely to be doomed” and “this is why Cesareans are so bad” chapters. I didn’t really get much help from either book. Everything is pretty obvious- you are having two babies, and you are going to have to figure out yourself the way things are going to work.

Who's who

I just called Marilyn, the doula who was there for Mia’s birth. She said she wouldn’t mind doing a trade to come help with the twins’ birth. I’m sure it will be nice to have her there, and I’m grateful she is willing to work something out with us. She usually charges $400.
Mia is starting to say more words. Yesterday she saw a baby on the TV and said “Behbee!” and today she was looking at a little family statue Kirsten Morgan gave us and pointed to the baby and said “Baybee!” so I know it isn’t a fluke. We didn’t even teach her that one. She mimics us when we say easy words like “Ew” and “Uh-oh.” And when we watch her Baby Einstein videos that my mom gave us she tries to say the words. They say “couch” and she gears up her throat and says “gough!” Flower is “wawo!” It is so much fun to watch her. I’m so in love with her, I just cringe when I think how hard things could be on her over the next year.
We think we decided on names. This Sunday we picked out Anya Rachelle and Bree Camille, and neither of us has changed our mind yet. I guess we’ll just see who looks like what when they’re born and decide who is who then.